Inside a Forbidden Laughter [entries|friends|calendar] Laughing Insanity ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE USERICON ABOUT ME <3 'Allo to all human beings and possibly other creatures visiting my online and sometimes personal journal. <3 Let me start introducing myself to you by telling you my alias. <3 They call me "Mara", but of course it's my real name indeed. <3 "A/S/L?" You may ask, and my answer to that is "Ass/Sex/Lover" <3 I'm not really a fan of ass sexing, but =] it's just fun to creep people out. <3 Hm, maybe I should give you some personal information =o...just promise not to stalk me. I know I'm awesome [=. <3 Well, I'm a sixteen year old....male? female? it? Hahahaha! Nawz, if you were able to find my journal...that means you know what I am. I hope, unless you're a stalker o_o;. <3 I was born in Lawton Oklahoma, but when I was like two months they took me to Cali for my Aunt's wedding, then after that we decided to move to Lexington, NC. (Small ass town.) <3 So you can say I was raised in LEX-VEGAS (Dont' know why they'd call it that when it ain't got shit, but Wal-Mart.) :) I also attend its public school. <3 Representing the Lexington's Yellow Jackets of the Orange and Blue. =] I'm an upperclassmen. Juniors "08". I like our number...=] "08" "Don't Hate" <3 My birthday is on November 29, 1989. That makes me a Snake in the chinese horoscope and a Sagittarius in astronomy. =]. I love my signs. PROUD TO BE WHO I AM. <3 Okay, I'm also asian. Yeah baby. 'but I don't look like it. Haha, a lot of people think I'm hawaiian or indian. Or something, no one ever knows. BUT, I'm Cambodian =] <3 My number one thing is Anime. =] I absolutely love it, and now I'm into comic books. Before I use to think it was a waste of time reading things that didn't move. Thanks to Manga for changing my mind. <3 Last thing I must warn everyone is that I'm ugly and fat. :o So if you're shallow, please don't come harass me, 'cause my fat ass is too lazy to do anything about it. <3 I'm also crazy, hyper, and weird....so yep, that's all ABOUT ME!!!! JOURNAL CONSISTINGS <3 Ramblings <3 Stupid shit <3 Emoness <3 Boredness <3 Horniness (J/K) <3 What happen today <3 What I plan to do <3 What's happening <3 Poems <3 Quizzes <3 Stories <3 Logs <3 Pictures <3 Drawings <3 How I'm feeling <3 Memories <3 Bitching <3 Depression <3 Happiness <3 Curiosity <3 Lyrics TRIBUTES Family: <3 Mom <3 Brother <3 Sister-in-law <3 Sister Best of Friends: <3 Chloe' <3 Kristen <3 Jasmin <3 Caitlin <3 Haley <3 MeNoS <3 Redd <3 Dana <3 Bryan <3 Shiviano <3 Laura <3 Casey <3 Sammy <3 William <3 Cory <3 San <3 Nana <3 Shuichi <3 Farah <3 Sarah <3 Shannon <3 Ramie <3 Kiyoki FRIEND'S JOURNAL halcyon_imprint missfreakshow theinsaneshivi boosie101 divine_paladin siiy shannonsu seb OTHER LINKS MySpace AnimeLab SurrealChat GaiaOnline Spogg Shockwave FanFiction MODIFY JOURNAL Update Edit Info Edit Friends Edit Userpics Edit Password Modify Journal SOULLESS_DEATH [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Sorry Friends Only =] [November 29, 2007] [ mood | accomplished ] 1.  This journal's private. 2.  =] Comment to be added. 3.  [= You have now been officially warned. 5 read . comment . edit . memories

I'm back babies [February 28, 2007] I'M BACK TO MY BELOVED! 1 read . comment . edit . memories

[December 07, 2006] x_e_s comment . edit . memories

Randomness of my Outbreak [October 10, 2006] [ mood | YARWHAHA ] «22:28:06» <+Xes> o_o «22:28:40» <+Xes> AND THEN I SCREAM AND SHOUT AS I HEAR THIS SONG «22:28:42» <+Xes> SING AND PLAY «22:28:49» <+Xes> SHOUT AND SAY «22:28:51» <+Xes> HEY HEY HEY «22:28:52» <+Xes> NOT TODAY «22:28:59» <+Xes> TOMORROW WILL BE NO MORE SORROW «22:29:03» <+Xes> YAY YAY YAY «22:29:08» <+Xes> And then, i go back to this...wondering «22:29:10» <+Xes> Staring... «22:29:12» <+Xes> wandering... «22:29:15» <+Xes> WHY WHY WHY WHY???? «22:29:40» <+Xes> Then the world....shuts away from me.... «22:29:44» <+Xes> And they call me crazy.... «22:29:55» <+Xes> But am I really that crazy???? or is it just me.... «22:30:04» <+Xes> Maybe I just want to be freee....to be freee..... «22:30:10» <+Xes> To fly....into eternity «22:30:31» <+Xes> Then I wonder....IF creation is real at all.... «22:30:35» <+Xes> What if I fall... «22:30:37» <+Xes> and never come back? «22:30:46» <+Xes> What if I die.... «22:30:51» <+Xes> And still live on.... «22:31:25» <+Xes> So what's the question THEY ALL SAY «22:31:27» <+Xes> And I GO «22:31:27» <+Xes> NAY «22:31:29» <+Xes> NAY NAY «22:31:41» <+Xes> Man my teeth hurts. «22:32:25» <+Xes> Mhm.... «22:32:29» <+Xes> And then Ill never know... «22:32:39» <+Xes> I'll never know...I'll never know...for sure. «22:32:44» <+Xes> I'll never know the truth. «22:33:24» <+Xes> Yet no one listens «22:33:27» <+Xes> And why should they? «22:33:34» <+Xes> If they do not know me, and I do not know them? «22:33:40» <+Xes> Even if I shout, it is only a whisper «22:33:43» <+Xes> FOR THEY DO NOT CARE «22:33:45» <+Xes> THEY DON'T GIVE A DAMN «22:33:51» <+Xes> YOU ARE NOTHING IN THEIR EXISTENCE «22:33:54» <+Xes> You are nothing in mines «22:33:56» <+Xes> YOU ARE NOTHING «22:33:58» <+Xes> is all I HEAR «22:34:03» <+Xes> ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT «22:34:05» <+Xes> ALLLL «22:34:08» <+Xes> ALLL ALLL ALLL «22:34:12» <+Xes> that I'll ever know.... «22:34:19» <+Xes> And then I could go on...endless «22:34:21» <+Xes> NEVER STOPPING «22:34:24» <+Xes> Always wondering... «22:34:29» <+Xes> DOES THE WORLD HAVE AN END? 3 read . comment . edit . memories

No Entry [September 14, 2006] [ mood | horny ] comment . edit . memories

What really went down in Dana's channel [July 24, 2006] I was only playing around and it went all out of control lol.  I think I need to stop being perverted T_T Its addicting..... ( What went down ) 2 read . comment . edit . memories

....Boredism [June 22, 2006] [ mood | infuriated ] Hey...I wrote something weird. It was fun though, read it if your cared. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ She sat on her bed with a notebook and pen. "Today is your last..." This is where we begin: I fucking loved you...and thought you were the one. You tored me to pieces--I'm so glad we're done. You were nothing to me, but why am I lying? You were everything, I feel like I'm dying. Why is your image still etched in my head? Why do I wish you were fucking dead? Why are you lying on the floor? Were you not just walking out the door? Tell me why my hands are stained with red. What am I doing with your head? Why is your body now sprawled on the table? Why am I feeling so unstable? Why am I trembling with fear? Who fucking did this to my dear? Oh, yes...that's right, it was all me. I saved you, love, I set you free. 1 read . comment . edit . memories

If I had wings... [May 19, 2006] [ mood | refreshed ] If I was given wings, where would I go? Would I fly, fly towards the never ending horizon? Or would I soar off into the mountains? No my dear, those are not the places. The only place I would fly is where my heart lies. And so...I fly nowhere because there is nowhere to reside! Oh, if only I had wings...and instead of waiting for my heart--I'd fly to you. 5 read . comment . edit . memories

The horror.... [August 04, 2005] [ mood | rejuvenated ] Its true...I am...truly...something that I don't want to believe....happened to me....something I feared....something I tried to keep myself from....but in the end...it didn't work....so I must now....reveal....that...I didn't keep my promise...to myself...not to....GET FATTER!!! Man I WAS SUPPOSE TO LOSE WEIGHT THIS SUMMER NOT GAIN. ;.; I hope I don't look like a whale. AH MY GOD THE HORROR IS TERRORIZING ME!!! I need help. NO MORE EATING A LATE SNACK OR YOU WILL GO KABOOM!!! Ok this nightmare will be over o-e. Wait and watch. IT WILL DISSAPEAR. And to those hearing this....WHEN IS NARUTO COMING TO TV????? :( I'm tired of downloading SHH SHH ITS ILLEGAL DON'T TELL ON ME....O_O Anyhow...I like Bleach wish....it was on dvd so I can just go out and buy it. Hm....I use way too much dots. MUST REDUCE AND USE COMMA'S!!! Or maybe I can stop using caps...but I love caps...Not the button Capslock but...USE THE POWER OF SHIFT!!! Although my pinky always hurt resulted from it... I think....I MUST SAY!!! I am a fool!!! Let it be known!!! Watch when I LEARN MORE ABOUT CPU'S!!! I'll GET BIG MONEY!!! I like this song...it goes. "CASH RULES EVERYTHING AROUND ME C.R.E.A.M GET THE MONEY DOLLA DOLLA BILL YALL" You might have heard it...Its by Wu-tang Clan titled C.R.E.A.M Hey this entry is getting pretty long and...even more nonsensical so I will now depart BUT DON'T MISS I WILL BE BACK IN JUST A MATTER OF TIME!!! <3 <3 <3 FOREVER AND ALWAYS YOURS SINCERLY ~Inside a forbidden laughter~ 4 read . comment . edit . memories

xD [July 09, 2005] [ mood | hungry ] Today I went walking to the king store. Its kind of far from my house but not too far. I went with my cousin Anthony with five dollars and bought me a bag of chips, slim jim, a power band inscribed with the words, "Truth", and a drink. When we got there my cousin Anthony took forever. God dang it he took forever. When we got there he had to take a dump. Stupid boy. God he took forever. Anyhow my sister said she was going to go somewhere to get something to eat. I asked my mom for another five dollars. She said she wouldn't give it to me. So I took my change from earlier and threw it to the ground. I was furious. My little sister picked it up and I threw it outside again. Hehehe....I shouldn't have done that. But I did and I still got another five dollars. Well I'm stupid. :D But I feel good. p.s. I said forever a lot o_o. 2 read . comment . edit . memories

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